Sunday, December 31, 2006
Farewell { 9:32 PM
Today, I feel like a cheapo. Why do I feel like i'm trying to cling unto somebody, when it's obvious that he'd rather leave me alone than being with me.. But never mind I know I'll be fine. I'm kind of bored, sometimes it comes to me that while we may be counting down to the new year 2007, grandma's counting down on the bed to... Sigh. I guess this is life.
Soon we'll be bidding goodbye to 2006, :)
Here I am having no countdown parties to go to, and i cant deny the fact that i'm actually envious of brother just because they're going to countdown together. Oh well.. :)
Rather a summary.
This year, I know I grew. I gained more insight on stuff, and I experienced more than I ever did. It took just these 12 months and bonds were made, yet at the same time, bonds were broken. The bond I really appreciate were those with my team mates. It started off with the PESS carnival at 2005, where we achieved all the way to the second position that faithful day together. This year's tournament just made us grow together, the Damai game was one of the best in my life with you all.. I love all our SPTs, where we'll be pushing ourselves hard and no one's complaining. Well i'll miss that, won't you?
I'm sorry for the whole front of this year I was neglecting my friends. This year, all the good classmates I had, even being part of Solution13, the fun and simple outings together and all. These last few months of 2006 were one of the best. Walking up the hill to school with Geraldine, all the good food in the last few days of school, the trainings and friendlys in the holidays, that shopping day with wenjia and graci, the shanghai trip, the bbqs, the movie marathons and later nights. I became more open with friends. In all, I gained more freedom unknowingly.
I tried a guy's life to me for a night, hanging out at lan for near 5 hours. I learnt Dota, and i'm undoubtly impressed by how my brother plays. (Especially last night but I know i'll have to keep it a secret)
This year, I gained more closer friends. Yet some, I threw them away. I'm sorry cheongheng, for breaking my promise to you this holiday. I dont know if you'll be here to see this, but i guess you also know it's different for us to talk, thus it was hard for you to say goodbye.
Time is passing and things are changing for me. All those matters that I'm being bothered with, I know they'll fall back in place some time.
For 2007. Joining blaze was a decision to make, cause i'm really hoping it'll push me in netball further, though I only want to play for the next two years, for i'm actually bored of it now. Yet I cant ensure how i'll feel 2 years later..
I have to thank somebody, for all the love he had given me, though some times i could see how i didnt treasure him, how i realized i actually cared about my pride, how i realized now I can actually see so many things now, such as how we're both throwing each other away. It became kind of hard to control my emotions, actions and all even though I can see, sadly. I miss you by my side, yet there's nothing i can do.
I'm sorry for all the unpleasant things that happened to us which even affected the people around us. I guess I was partly at fault too. I'm sorry to you all, sorry to make you worry my sis, yet now, I miss you not being at home you know? When are you coming back?
Thanks for I know you care my real brother. Thank you my favourite person, Geraldine, all my really good chit-chatty team-mates, my gf and kor though it's a long time since i last saw them, 2G, and still sometimes i have to thank my parents. This time i could see what's happening within my family though I'm still helpless about it, but nevertheless, I feel deeper feelings, plus I had learnt a lot from mum, a down-to-earth person. I'm thankful she's here in my family. :)
I know this will be my best year in my first 10 years of schooling. This long post looks more like a will now lah. Haha. I decided i'll barge into mum's room and wish her a happy new year when the clock strikes 12!! :)
Goodbye 2006, (it's not goodbye to you wen jia,)
Happy 2007ear ! let's look back sometimes
After some time I've finally made up my mind
she is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
to tell her I love her
and I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done
I find her standing in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
but she's crying while she's saying this
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twentyfive minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twentyfive minutes too late
Against the wind I'm going home again
wishing me back to the time when we were more than friends
But still I see her in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy in her weddingdress
but she cryed while she was saying this
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twentyfive minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twentyfive minutes too late
Out in the streets
places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
inside my head
still I can hear the words she said
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twentyfive minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twentyfive minutes too late
I can still hear her say.......
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twentyfive minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twentyfive minutes too late
Boy, I always think we're strong.
Have a Merry Year Ahead! <3
Jie, Kor, Mum and Father.
Teng Rui.
Wen Jia, Geraldine, Louisa, Alicia, Andrea, Ci Hui, Xinling, Wan Qi & Graci.
Gf, Kit, Wb, Cy, Jl, Ch, DECENT CLOSE FRIEND.
Shuttlers(Brenda, tinGz, Bel, Sue-Ean, Pan, Chi Koong, and i wonder if the rest comes here...) , Sweetheart, Mingryan, tt-people, Zj, (All these guys I once played maple with), 2G.
Ks, Clare and Eunice.
And those merry people of 2H. Hahaha.
AND HERE SPECIALLY FOR YOU:
All the best to you, favourite person! ;)
Oh yes, Ivan and Li Meng too!
