Tuesday, December 26, 2006
if love with you could be comfortable with silence. how great would it be? { 8:41 PM
I expected today to be homeworking day, but i went to spend hours off with grandma watching television programmes. :)
After watching Love Actually, it tells me Christmas should be spent with those you love. I didnt regret going for Yu Him's chalet, (for it's his 7th birthday today and there was a soccer field chocolate cake for him yesterday) you know family arent very bad after all. I just wished my whole family could be there.
And so I sent greeting msgs to mates on the first night. Then I decided to send to all those nice people in the second. It came to me that joy should be shared plus they spreaded joy to me. :)
Ahh it's a long time since i've spoken with gf, and how upset i am for i didnt wish him a Merry Christmas. Come here and see this please!!!
MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS TO YOU GF!!!!!! :) :) :)
I need to start countdowning my homework, just like how we could countdown for new year. I wish there's going to be a New Year party!!!!! :)
(but you never know how much i would like to be with you now will you? the hug felt so good but i really wonder how you were feeling. do you know how lost i could get just thinking about you with no matter what you do? it sucks so much to see how indifferent you are towards me now. i just want to be able to hold your hands once more, or even look into your eyes once more, and i really wish that i could tell you that i love you like i once could. i really wish we could just go straight back together and be like before, otherwise just tell me two words. Move On. if you're afraid of regretting then would you like to give up and not try anymore? please why is it like a torture now and you tell me i did the same thing to you? maybe you just dont feel anything now like how i was and it seems like everything i was then is just how you are now. do you know it only felt slightly bitter for me then? i wonder how is it to you. maybe you feel like it's a sweet taste of revenge.)
and it seems like no one's bothering. dont wipe my tears and make me feel rotten the other minute. nobody uses fuck on me just like you do and it feels so wrong.