Wednesday, February 28, 2007

i wanna know if you wanna ride, wanna go and take a ride with me { 10:06 PM

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

tomorrow would be yesterday, yesterday was tomorrow. { 9:05 PM

Monday, February 26, 2007

when all you got to keep is strong { 9:15 PM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

hello goodbye { 11:21 PM

Went for service myself today, like 45 minutes late I realized. Heard Liu Geng Hong sang cai hong tian tang, i like hearing songs that i know of. :))

And I like Jay Chou!

So I met Ruben at Attributes after service, like wow so coincidental once more. We're both staring at each other and i was wondering why was he so familiar.. And I recalled all those stuff which happened one year ago.

Met Edmund while going in Summer Gardens. So it was like we played mahjong... Played with him, Vanessa and Ian at first. Ian & Li Meng were damn funny while playing mahjong LOL! Yi Cheng, Jasper, Vanessa and Liang Kai were funny with Dang it! Played and ate chips/goodies like some greedy-pok. Blahblahblahblahblah..........

Thank you God for letting me feel for a moment that you're going to take my life away from the world, cause it felt like nothing.

Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

I know you can hear me
I know you can feel me
I can't live without you
God please make me better
I wish I wasn't the way I am

[Keyshia:]
If I told you once, I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Diddy:]
Tell me the words to say,
To make you come back,
And work me like that.
And if it matters I'll rather stay home,
With you I'm never alone.
Don't want to wait till you're gone,
Let me be, just don't leave me.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take my pain awayyyyy.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I'm so alone I'm soooo lonelyyyyy,

Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
And call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
Just call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

[Phone dialing and ringing]
[Diddy:]
Hello
Hey waz-up
I've been tryin' to reach you all night
That shit ain't funny not picking up the mutha fucking phone
Better stop fucking playing with a nigga's feelings like that
You know how much I love you though right?
But for them couple of seconds though,
When I couldn't get in touch with you.
I'm ready to come over your house and shoot that mutha fucker up
You better fucking not be there when I get over that house
[laughing]
That's really how it goes down right?

Friday, February 23, 2007

{ 8:06 PM

heyyyyyyyyyyy all Graci enlightened me about a question in my head today. oh lovely. :)

training today was so draggggggggy.. went to have bubble tea & waffle with Graci after that. then i didnt want to go play mahjong. i wanna sleep like what brother is doing now.

oh sadly i dont get to treat him to seoul garden.. :(

argh i need to eat........ i cant finish my meals recently lol. okay mum is disappointed in me for not wanting to eat and we cant have dinner at home anymore?

i think i gonna have an infection and like sigh it's freaking swollen sob sob sniff sniff. :'(

Alicia's coming back tomorrow, and Li Meng's party is being postponed HAHA. tmr can sleep. :D

okay & star dee & listen to music & breakfast. im freaking upset about sec 2 life, like there WERE panda mike and dear people in the class HAHA. now is fine still though. bye i hope today's gone and tomorrow's gone. weekend gone then hao3 liao3. 50 years gone also hao3. :D

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing I'm tryin' to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
No I can't fake it, there's no one else

Thursday, February 22, 2007

{ 10:52 PM

好像... { 10:19 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

MmUuSsIiCc { 8:21 PM

Edited:)
your birthday's coming
3K got second for the classboard! Good job Eunice & all especially!!! ;)
and i feel like i gonna do nothing
Had lunch with sis, and both of us were feeling pretty unwell. Had Cafe Cartel, walked, then had Swensens Ice-cream. Thanks Jie for the lunch treat, especially the stawberry shake! <3
what can i do now anyway?
Went shopping with Ci Hui & Geraldine today! I felt better then, like my headache was gone. Thank you Geraldine & Ci Hui for the bubble tea!!!! We spent a long time getting the watch at the start, so I hope dearest Alicia will love it. :)
are you even here in the first place?
[ I'll miss her for breakfast tomorrow and friday... =( ]

So we got a shirt each today, and more! I'm very amazed that all 3 of us could wear the same size!!! :D

I REALLY ENJOYED GOING OUT WITH YOU BOTH THIS AFTERNOON! ^^

There were pretty alot of people at tm today! I saw Raymond and the guys, and I know Samuel was there, but I didnt happen to see Chi Min although he was there too. Oh then I calculated about how I managed to spend all my $80 plus in my wallet only just getting gifts/cards/shirt lol. :(
cant anybody just tell me what is a relationship?
I'm Bao-ing Jiao Zi with Elissa & Graci tomorrow! Wahaha we gonna have Brenda & Cherine as our supporters! :D
to let it go as and when, to treat it as clothes, so easily worn and disposed?
Thank you gf, for sincerely wanting me to be happy. Do you know you are the only one who really makes me feel that you give me more than what I give in return? I feel really bad this way, but I really am touched. I feel really really blessed with your presence. :)

So i'm gettting your whole list of songs for you Graci! Really thank you to you Pei Qi, for sending/downloading for me like 789351901358-i-dont-know-how-many songs! :)

I realized i dont really get bored with music playing ~~~

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
I miss you.
I miss the beach.
I wish i could tell you so many times I love you, be it for the past, present, or future,
/I miss cycling!
to make up for all the times i couldnt,
I'm looking forward to shopping with Louisa, Wj and Graci, and I'm looking forward to going to the beach. Thank you Graci, about cycling. Love you. :)
no matter what you do.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

flee-err-teee hehee { 10:59 PM

take good care { 7:51 PM

As I hanged up the phone with you Jonathan, you said I made you feel like shit. In return, you had made me feel like shit. Maybe you still can't see this, but anyway why is it like that. :(

I'm not sick and tired of people sharing issues with me. But i just get feeling troubled about why cant i settle my own issues? All this while as I may be listening to some of you talk, I've just been trying to tell you about what i feel. This is when I realized that actually all the problems/issues about people are overall the same.

You know, there are certain conversations I wished I succeeded making sense into you after all.

At the same time, I wish these so called senses are instilled deep inside my own head, or something like being memorized at the back of my hand that kind of thing.

Lol.

I tell myself things are not always my fault you know. It's not always my fault when I cant help. Sometimes, people just dont want to absorb 'sense'. They can't, it's difficult. Sometimes it is non-answerable to why is it so? They're like rheotorical questions, this word I've been seeing so often recently.

Sometimes I feel, this world is so unfair. Why are men so fickle-minded and unexplainable? Why do people like to compare? Why do people like new things?

It's not my fault. We are made this way. Exposure is fresh, Exposure is experience, therefore Exposure is fine. This world is so confusing huh. Songs like Runaway Love tells us the sad thing about this world. lol.

Favourite person, Li Meng's party is on coming saturday and i think you may come anytime? It's an open invitation I guess. Anyway, I dont know how you're settling the matter, and i know you've got more of your own issues. I'm sorry for I feel now that I had done nothing even by talking to you then. I just want to let you know that I hope I can be supporting you always, and I hope I can always be making your day.
Ci Hui, take care of your flu okay. Glad to see you yesterday. I feel happy we both went down to the airport tgt to send dear Alicia off. It was fun how we were dodging/suspicious and all right hahaha. I guess all I can do is send my love to you, even if it's my one-sided affection once more LOL. ;) do take care.
Clare, Thanks for the movie last night. I know you were disappointed about the full house for the 2250 movie. =p I guess 0035's movie was late. Haha. But Ghostriders was nice, but it was funny during the STARTING part, whenever . reminds you of....... (:

I dont know my point. Probably I just dont know what's wrong with some people. They make it sound as if they're so sick & tired of things when they are the one causing the problems themselves. They just dont settle it and they are people who just want to go against higher authority. There's just something wrong with the attitude perhaps.

Okay, today's post maybe a little no link la. The things I say are like that I realized. Most of the time they dont mean anything unless you think they do. :D

Yawn. Goodbye my issues, may they fly away with wings like angels and leave me feeling bitter. There's nothing wrong with me now okay. -.-

Hahahahahahahhaa. Hi i was thinking... How many of you are willing to be here to listen to me instead of thinking that you know my problem and dont have to ask further? Who reads this blog? ;)

This question is meant for those who dont bother. Haha i know, i'm just like SOMEBODY. As in girl-next-door that kind of thing, probably smaller than a dot on the globe. Just having a few people who cares are probably great enough. (even if someday I grow old alone and die?) But I never know who may see me as more than a dot, or even their whole world. Haha I may sound bhb, but cause at least I know I feel this way for certain people.

This lunar new year was fine, I only ate a few goodies, such as more than 10 ferrero rochers, love letters, pineapple tarts, etc. LOL I JUST RMB THIS YEAR I HAVENT LAO YU SHENG?!?!??! I am damn rude/lucky. I always wake up near noon while people are here visiting, and I got to stay out till after past midnight. Haha.

I know somebody once told me something like that,

If we are meant to be, we will be together.
-I cant remember who. Hahahahaha.

Sometimes I wish, I am able to hear you out all the time rather than having others talk about you.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

{ 9:10 PM

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR { 11:36 AM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

im so glad about the sweetness i could feel between couples { 9:57 PM

=) happy chinese new year soon people! i tried tagging at as much blogs as possible this evening. haha, i dont know if i had dropped by yours!

so during this season. imagine the hong baos coming in following by the amount we kids could have for shopping. i dont really like money now, but i'll appreciate all those things i like that could come with it. hehe. im not really making much sense.

ahaha, i feel much better now tonight as of compared to last night. Cause someone just asked me about counting down! people may be shou ye-ing tonight, but im not like usual. (:

I feel better cause I realized what I had was a busy season, which i couldnt cope with everything of course. Alicia will be going to Japan soon! i know her night flight's timing hahaha.

so i woke up this morning by Wen Jia's call! Went to Town again with her after lunch. Today, i got a Zara top i liked, and Wen Jia got her pair of heels. Yay. I'm starting to see the fun of Town. ^^

Met up with sis and bro after Starbucks/after shopping, then we headed home for reunion dinner. I had a rather good time during these 3 days of shopping, during which i got shirts and jeans and a skirt and belt. I think all those who went shopping with me was really nice to wait for me to change (as i think i really take a long time) so I really thank you Ivan, Graci and Wen Jia! =))

Most visiting will be held at my house this year, so I wonder when will I wear my heels. Hah.

I tried purchasing this gift from Ebay last night, and I was really upset when I saw that the last bid for the item will be on 2:17 and i only saw it on 2:12?! Thank God it was up again this morning. I really really really hope i'll be able to get it for somebody. Pray for me please? Lol. I dont know why i feel that it is so important. People may blame me for being stupid, ahahahaha.

Sorry to all those I replied to your phone/online messages late. Was watching videos, and some individuals were given priority first. Sorry. I'm looking forward to friends new year parties and I had been discussing with Ci Hui and Wen Jia!! (:

These videos i was watching, so many touchy lines the some electric guy had. hahaha.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uC2blY7RyGs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrX8JB47SyQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1xDFlU3Sx6Y

Alright it's near 12, and i finally waited for my girlfriend to come online. :) :) :)

Sorry, I guess you can tell that I am not interested in you, nor a relationship for now.

So I'm trying to help my friends yet I dont know about myself. Hahahahahahaha. Okay, Happy Chinese New Year once more in a few more minutes. Goodbye!

Number 7th in 1 year plus { 12:28 AM

I just knew I'd left someone out someday, somewhat. Exactly like what I've been thinking today. Fuck. I'm just angry.

I should've put in more effort. In the morning I shouldnt have been like, okay you're with your guy. Although it's your birthday but i should leave you both to lang man as it's valentines. If only I was able many many birthday songs for you. Give you a hug. Got you a cake the night before. We didnt have match. If we were efficient enough to change the plan of a crumpler.

You were there for me last year with your message. I really thank you for all the times with you since sec 1, i know there were rather a lot but of course the most memorable time was being at the stairs with Chun Kit. I'm so sorry, I was actually wishing somebody else their last happy birthday for the day. I've only been seeing you during morning breakfast and canteen, but recently I've been late. You were unwell today, and yup. Recess was all that I've seen you today. How I wish it could be easy to maintain relationships with everyone I knew, and how I wish I was still able to be in the same class as last year, so it could've been so much easier to keep in touch with all my friends. Every day can be Valentines, and everyday can be A Happy Birthday.

Alicia, Do have a safe trip to Japan soon! Have an enjoyable trip over there, and see you soon when you're back! (:

I realized that I havent seen Geraldine for the whole of today. Sigh. I've been really clumsy lately. Banging into a board while being so engrossed looking at somebody till my lips bled, fell while rushing for a train and missed it, squeezed chilli sauce all around the table, splurting chilli gravy onto my father while trying to break the crab shell & next dropping the crab on my uniform. I know all these are damn embarrasing but i'm just sharing the real me.

Svc was good yesterday evening. It was the first time this year I felt that I'm learning something much more relevant for myself. Managed to spend $100 yesterday. Thank you Ivan for shopping with me last night. I hope you liked the MOS Burger Meal. (:

Thank you Graci and Wen Jia for today, the talking, the piercing, the shopping and of course I'm thankful to you both who were willing to go with me to look for the stuff I wanted. I love the heels i've gotten with you Graci. Thank you. I gonna perfect it and kill my clumsy self. You know you made me realise something else about life today; Every single person has got their own issues, yet it just depends whether or not you want to bother about their issue.

Sometimes it feels good staring into space. Im glad we had slack lessons today. It was great that there was time to sleep after the test. I dont know if I was dreaming or thinking about so many stuff. About what can I do to make everything better. I'm actually trying to avoid myself from thinking, by doing stupid things like jumping around or doing the board with Eileen. (:

I have to admit I fear rejection. To the extent when you tell me any topic about my relationship, I get completely turned off. I dont want to think anymore. It had been 2 months. I am so afraid and tired of whatever that's happening. It's too wrong for me.

I have nothing to hide about my feelings. I dont mind being insensitive towards you people, cause sometimes I do it on purpose. For one of the thing I realized about life is being direct indirectly causes the meaning to be left behind more deeply unto the person. Thus they'll absorb the meaning more easily. Most people mind about what others think about them, dont they?

I've been home only around 10+ or 11+ after school these few days that the next people I'm neglecting are gonna be my family. I was actually glad Chinese New Year is coming where all relatives will get together and it'll be real fun and that's the real thing about kinship. But I realized that there are problems like broken relationships here and there within the family. So is this family-relationship-bonding-time valuable/appreciated?

Can you teach me how to handle everything around me? Is it that I'm not supposed to be concerned about all these actually? If that is the case there is nothing in life I should do nor bother about right? I came with nothing to this world but with a soul, therefore I dont need my soul and can leave the world without it even. I thought I'd just make it better for everyone else until I find a true love for my life and settle down. Actually I cant deny the fact that the test Mrs Goh gave us yesteday about DISCovering our Personality was interesting. Except that I find the deduction of our jobs were wrong. You know I really am just comforting myself everytime I just barely got an A for my tests.

Oh yes like what i've told you all, my mum says it's alright to have a party at my place! But I dont know what will come up anyway. And yay, i just found out that I get to do to my aunt's place for the New Year instead. Rather than they coming over. Life is good, during which issues are inevitable. ^^

我的感情线--爱到麻木，爱到失去了知觉

You can say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that boy is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times
I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Ooh, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Ooh, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

Please know this I'll always be right here
And you don't have to look
Nowhere else babe
Don't think for a minute
This love will change
Oh you should know that

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

<3 ly ! Lovely! { 10:13 PM

Happy Valentines people! ^^

And also Happy Birthday to Alicia, Ivan and Valentino!! I'm pretty sure I AM THE FIRST TO WISH IVAN HAPPY BIRTHDAY OKAY. :D

Hahaha alright. Got chocolates today of course, let's start a THANK YOU list like normal. ^^

Firstly I'd like to thank Celeste for her rose!!
Teng Rui for a rose, notebook and gift,
GERALDINE & CI HUI for the sweets and merci chocolate! :D
Eileen for her card and marshmellow ^^
Li Han for a card :D
Elissa for a card and marshmellow! ;D
AND GRACI FOR A CARD WITH MAGAZINE CUTTING. ;D
BRENDA FOR HER VALENTINES CHOCOLATE!
Cherine for the FATTY Full Cream Milk Chocolate!!
Rachel Yeo for her lollipop!
Jervis for his Mars and M&Ms!
Si Jing my Angel for his cadbury!
Tony for his chocolates.

OF COURSE, I AM SO THANKFUL TO CHI MIN AND SAMUEL WHO ACCOMPANIED ME WAITING IN THE CANTEEN,

SO A SPECIAL THANK YOU MY GIRLFRIEND FOR YOUR 100 PLUS!!!!!

Sorry if I left anyway out but anyway, I hope they(team, family, some shuttlers, clare & sweetheart) liked the deliveries i've ordered for them! Though complaints were made that they're not nice but do you feel my love?!

Okay so since Monday we were officially out for the East Zone Semi Finals. I'm pretty glad no nobody said Jia you to me i noticed, for it wasnt necessary and I guess they knew. ^^

Well at least there was one person I think. It was powerless. Sorry. (:

My sister threw something I got today away. Lol. Anyway Celeste's rose for me withered by the afternoon.

Last Friday
Had a great time at Dunman Sec with Louisa, Alicia and Ci Hui.

Last Saturday
Went shopping for gifts at city hall since11 plus!! Haha. We spent a total of $100 plus, till like around 6. I bought Chocolates, Waffles and a bottle for myself!! Then I went off to CHINATOWN for 3K Class Outing! Fabulous! We were being squeeeeeeezed. :D

Last Sunday
Church! Then came back and SLEEP. :D

Monday
Match against Damai. Lost but satisfied. (:

Tuesday
Served my detention with Tony. Luckily brother and Ian came to chit-chat with me! Until Ms Lee got Mr Chua to get them to leave. Hmmph! Met Wen Jia to go shopping after that! But we got nothing at all, for we realized that we were picky people! We walked till the shops were closed, then we went for Gelare. ^^

Today
Although we only let them catch up in the last quart.. But it's alright all! I'm really glad to have this season with you all. It had been great. =)))

It is Father's birthday today! So it was family dinner. Sis and me both fell today sadly. Haha. Anyway, Thanks Brother for his words of Congrats! For today marks the

End of Season. (:

I BELIEVE WE WILL COME BACK NEXT YEAR MY DEAREST TEAM MATES.

Wen Jia
Im sorry I havent gave you your Valentines gift! Thank you for coming down to Kallang today my favourite person. Love you (:

Personal matters- Obviously I know things dont mean a thing anymore for you. You're purely acting. I'm just letting you be alright? Do your words mean something at all?

Thank you all who had been telling me to take care. Oh yes, I send my love to you too Shu Yi! I received yours through Graci. ^^

There are a lot of people who I wanna tell you to take care too. I bet you know who you are. (:

Thursday, February 08, 2007

{ 8:20 PM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

{ 10:20 PM

{ 6:09 PM

Hahahhahahahahaha. Things are passing so fast, and there are things i'm putting down without even saying goodbye.

Well, I did in my heart lah. Lol. Okay, studied with Graci & brother for a short while after school before Graci left. So me and brother went home. (:

Ms Samantha Khoo didnt come today so we wasted 2 periods! It was entertaining sitting infront of Celeste and Rachel. We just laughed and all. :D

Ks said I am pro to just be talking throughout half an hour during assembly! Hahaha. Chit-chatting with Eileen and you cant blame me cause i was practically falling asleep during Chem which was the lesson before assembly!!!!!
(I felt energized seeing Raymond!!!)

Actually everything makes sense. For all the times this year when I needed support, I had got nothing but rubbish from you. Understand rubbish? Those things you dont want and throw into the bin. But wait! I didnt get rubbish even. I got nothing!! Thats good enough. Haha. It's dumb to be mentioning all these things, but well i dont care cause it indeed affected me, and cause I know somebody's even more dumb to close up his own SMALL world. Hah

Sigh I just remembered so some people said they'll celebrate my birthday with me last year but didnt. Aww Aww Aww Aww Aww never mind for I ain't very friendly to 2 people recently anyway. Sorry to one who dont even know it is him. T.T

The other one is Abigail cause i get really irritated with her sometimes when she forgets to bring her things and obviously i will lend her my stuff but i ~~hate~~strongly dislike it when she gets 'shy' one moment or too open the other using my stuff. Zzzz.

I think saying I know what i am doing when you're not even granted freedom is stupidity. It is purely the actions of a kid acting and trying to fly, which is trying to fill in his life with junk or practically i-just-dont-want-to-use-shit. Okay I've got no right to say much, for I'm a kid too. I'm happy having a brother, a sister, my family, my team, my friends, my seniors and JUNIORS. (: (: (:

Grandma's birthday dinner later, and I havent studied. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz LAZY! Freaking exhausted, so I shall not run during PE tomorrow TO CONSERVE ENERGY FOR THE !@#$%^&; IMPORTANT THING TOMORROW EVENING. Haha. Maybe there can be gossiping/bitching times for PE like last week. (=x)

:D
Funny huh, i'm supposed to act like something happened and i'm !$% damn affected. It's the other way round
3K Things coming up:
-Chinatown
-Vday exchange gift!

(PS, I think Graci is happy!) =P

LETS GO CNY SHOPPING!!!!!

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

{ 9:57 PM

just so you know { 9:01 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

{ 7:23 PM

I couldnt stand my previous skin anymore so I just needed a change. This week seemed too much for me that I practically couldnt take it from Thursday. On monday it was a match and I had a sprain, tuesday it was brother's birthday, wednesday was the match against TKGS, thursday was the encounter with Zheng Old Man whereas Friday was another late match day. Saturday was spent being 14 hours out, and gladly Sunday was home day except for the church time.

Calls just kept on coming in waking both me and my sister this morning, which i am so sorry about it. Cause I overslept and thought I wouldnt be going down to church today. But BK was like I see you at Foyer 3? I'm like huh? Then he was like I'll wait here for you. So went to talk to him, went for service which i dont understand so many things, and after service I called Bel and found out Zhu Ting overslept too so actually Bel went for the service alone. :(

Saw new people who thought I was from poly. Sigh I'm so sick of having things to do and people just cant stop adding on to them. I'm so tired and dont have any passion to do/settle anything plus I dont feel any faith to be honest. Ironically there are people who care for me yet I get irritated and frustrated towards them and in my head I bother about matters which I shouldnt give a fuxx about.

So more about yesterday, we went to surprise Brenda in the morning at Zhu Ting's place! Louisa left early and Wen Jia brought Ryan back after Guitar. So we started mahjong after which Ryan left, Brenda and Zhu Ting went to Chi Koong's place so the rest of us went to hk's house to do work. There they were watching MVs/cartoon/show while I was doing my math and zuo wen and dozing off, waking up with a jerk which scared wj and hk.

Dinner at Changi Village, where the 2 guys ate the most, after which we went back, I had magnum cause Cheers didnt have nachos, and then Wen Jia's dad fetched us home.

Do you know Ryan plays mahjong every weekend?!??!? Yay that's all for my weekend. I'm so happy i was able to sing for Brenda a birthday song 5 times for her. :D

Can you sense that i'm fed up? I havent went for a haircut and I'll go get the sweets for Clare later. I'm hoping that i could be immature. Yay. (??)

i dont know what to be thinking about when coach wants to quit. i dont know how will it be like when i go back for Blaze training some time soon. will it be soon? i hope not. i like our team. :)

So funny. I'm actually upset that nobody asks where am I going when I step out of house at 8pm in the night. Okay although it's only 8pm and i told them that i'm going to get some stuff, they dont even bother asking what stuff and at where am i going to get it & they just let me out like that. Even my aunts and father didnt ask. Maybe this is what happens when they think you're old enough? Haha so i'm thinking that they would've ask if i had went out later, yup.

Friday, February 02, 2007

{ 9:25 PM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

{ 8:39 PM

Hi i'm just really tired again. Even after sleeping for 8 and a half hours yesterday after hanging up the phone, I found out they didnt talked about anything else constructive at all. Haha. So i'm still wondering what's going to happen for somebody. =p

Although today is a thursday but I didnt walk up to school with Geraldine. Instead I woke up at 7.30 and took the cab at 8.45 yet I wasnt late. Yay.

Cause Ci Hui didn't want to go watch the juniors' match and I didnt help for the notice board... I went along to study with Brenda, Cherine, Pandora, Jonathan and Hong Kai. We saw this old man who wanted to walk home to Aljunied right after being discharged! He was practically freaking me out by standing at the pillar and somewhat clutching his chest. Me, Cherine & Hong Kai spent like 1 hour talking to him... He jumped off a building before and even showed us his scars on his stomach from his operation.. Omg i just dont know how to explain the whole one hour process cause I'm really tired. I just feel really upset towards how they treat patients with the blue IC even...

Cherine, Brenda and Pan just pang seh-ed me like that after I went to get my phone I left behind in school from Eunice!! :'(

So after attempting that one question of physics I had to go home for dinner for I couldnt wait long enough for Wen Jia to make her way down.

My brother is really the most guai lan person sometimes, even to that old man. Lol alright. There's a match tomorrow and I didnt expect to have 3 matches this week. I realized I didnt have time this week when I thought I would. I just end up really tired with all those late matches and stupid studies are getting so confusing.

Maybe brother is right about what he told me this morning. But at least Hong Kai said he wouldnt be wanting me dead. And I believe many others wouldnt too.

Jia you netballers. I'm glad I told Mr Chua my leg doesnt feel well therefore I didnt run the 3 rounds. My calf feels stretched still plus I practically had difficulties raising my hand to even say the pledge with all those pus on my elbow. But at least I managed to throw the shot put and I managed to write. Haha. I think many of us are just tired and overworked students.

Yup I'll just be fine tomorrow after an early night. I am sorry I simply got no energy to settle matters this week. Netball NetBall NETBALL study NETBALL. Brother's 2 birthdays, dinner with family & more.

I dont know why I dont know how to call that girl for that old man. Zzzzzzzzz. Wasnt he contradicting? I'm just thinking too much about him but how am I going to call tomorrow? I only rmb his surname.

Oh ya 2 English periods tomorrow. I havent mentioned that yesterday's english lesson was the first time I heard the class in deafening silence. Like one could hear the fan spinning and there was completely no sound except for the cracking/flipping of paper. Haha. 3K's good in groupwork yeah!

'Red Bull gives you wings!'

I'm so glad juniors are in the second round. We will be too tomorrow! Out of a sudden I remember there's a Math test and zuo wen to do in school tomorrow. Zomg. Night!