Tuesday, February 20, 2007
take good care { 7:51 PM
As I hanged up the phone with you Jonathan, you said I made you feel like shit. In return, you had made me feel like shit. Maybe you still can't see this, but anyway why is it like that. :(
I'm not sick and tired of people sharing issues with me. But i just get feeling troubled about why cant i settle my own issues? All this while as I may be listening to some of you talk, I've just been trying to tell you about what i feel. This is when I realized that actually all the problems/issues about people are overall the same.
You know, there are certain conversations I wished I succeeded making sense into you after all.
At the same time, I wish these so called senses are instilled deep inside my own head, or something like being memorized at the back of my hand that kind of thing.
Lol.
I tell myself things are not always my fault you know. It's not always my fault when I cant help. Sometimes, people just dont want to absorb 'sense'. They can't, it's difficult. Sometimes it is non-answerable to why is it so? They're like rheotorical questions, this word I've been seeing so often recently.
Sometimes I feel, this world is so unfair. Why are men so fickle-minded and unexplainable? Why do people like to compare? Why do people like new things?
It's not my fault. We are made this way. Exposure is fresh, Exposure is experience, therefore Exposure is fine. This world is so confusing huh. Songs like Runaway Love tells us the sad thing about this world. lol.
Favourite person, Li Meng's party is on coming saturday and i think you may come anytime? It's an open invitation I guess. Anyway, I dont know how you're settling the matter, and i know you've got more of your own issues. I'm sorry for I feel now that I had done nothing even by talking to you then. I just want to let you know that I hope I can be supporting you always, and I hope I can always be making your day.
Ci Hui, take care of your flu okay. Glad to see you yesterday. I feel happy we both went down to the airport tgt to send dear Alicia off. It was fun how we were dodging/suspicious and all right hahaha. I guess all I can do is send my love to you, even if it's my one-sided affection once more LOL. ;) do take care.
Clare, Thanks for the movie last night. I know you were disappointed about the full house for the 2250 movie. =p I guess 0035's movie was late. Haha. But Ghostriders was nice, but it was funny during the STARTING part, whenever . reminds you of....... (:
I dont know my point. Probably I just dont know what's wrong with some people. They make it sound as if they're so sick & tired of things when they are the one causing the problems themselves. They just dont settle it and they are people who just want to go against higher authority. There's just something wrong with the attitude perhaps.
Okay, today's post maybe a little no link la. The things I say are like that I realized. Most of the time they dont mean anything unless you think they do. :D
Yawn. Goodbye my issues, may they fly away with wings like angels and leave me feeling bitter. There's nothing wrong with me now okay. -.-
Hahahahahahahhaa. Hi i was thinking... How many of you are willing to be here to listen to me instead of thinking that you know my problem and dont have to ask further? Who reads this blog? ;)
This question is meant for those who dont bother. Haha i know, i'm just like SOMEBODY. As in girl-next-door that kind of thing, probably smaller than a dot on the globe. Just having a few people who cares are probably great enough. (even if someday I grow old alone and die?) But I never know who may see me as more than a dot, or even their whole world. Haha I may sound bhb, but cause at least I know I feel this way for certain people.
This lunar new year was fine, I only ate a few goodies, such as more than 10 ferrero rochers, love letters, pineapple tarts, etc. LOL I JUST RMB THIS YEAR I HAVENT LAO YU SHENG?!?!??! I am damn rude/lucky. I always wake up near noon while people are here visiting, and I got to stay out till after past midnight. Haha.
I know somebody once told me something like that,
If we are meant to be, we will be together.
-I cant remember who. Hahahahaha.
Sometimes I wish, I am able to hear you out all the time rather than having others talk about you.