Everything on Earth goes down to dust, but what's imprinted on the heart remains alive
Thursday, April 06, 2006
{ 7:39 PM
im feeling nice recently with the presence of wen jia, my favorite person in the world.
haha so ok my favourite person? =)
father is a mad man nagging all the time. after some time i realized, i dont really like home too. you said you dont wanna go home and i still dont understand, for i still want home sometimes. i realized, im home for the comp, for the bed, for mum at night, for jie's presence, perhaps brother's and knowing father is safe, for why i dunno whatever reason, for there's nothing else to look forward to actually at home. no homecooked dinner, only a naggy father, where i tried to be good, i do most things what im supposed to and im sure im much obedient, so can he stop nagging on whatever? if it affected my results its my future, he dont care, all he's asking is just a pass, he is not the one to reward me, so even when sis told me last time he is just worried, just forget it. he dont understand. i cant take his naggings. mum is so much better.
many times he had been starting, saying relationship will harm me, for im still studying. does he even know about 3 of us anyway, all he does he just scold, when he's not happy he just shows it and vent it, whereas we dont show our true emotions but unhappiness towards him. that explains our attitude sometimes, so he's the one who crafted us. im tired too and all he does, is just add onto burdens. my results is just all up to me, yes. just take my phone every single day, and best leave me without it, and i will ensure u i will come home late be it at bk studying alone.
so i'd rather treat anyone better than him, but of course not all, but definitely sis is so much more important. but im contented with having mum, though sometimes she's back late, so i dont really talk to her sometimes during weekdays. so you can say at least i've got a good mum, so how do i ever explain to you the world is unfair in its way, but i know it can be right, so i really dunno how to explain this to get into your head, so im sorry but all i try is just to cheer you up. thats the best i can do. just dont hurt me sometimes please by looking away and im really sorry sometimes i really dont know what i can do for you too. but cheese right?! =))
yesterday; we did clay together. we had waffle and bubble tea. he told me i seemed happier with my friends. it ended up ok. <3
today; i cant remember after reaching home with a father like mine.
im keeping records.
my geraldine sprained her ankle today! :'(
feel sad bout geraldine!! but i saw indra today! ^^ he waved!! i wonder whether is it indra or his brother!! =D
i dont look forward to after school tmr, but im finding school time ok if its just like usual. kelly is really wow and really thanks to her for doing the pw. gosh. anyway 2G seemed like a zoo from second recess today. hah. i havent played soccer at the back of the class for quite some time. =)