Everything on Earth goes down to dust, but what's imprinted on the heart remains alive
Monday, October 02, 2006
{ 9:15 PM
If time is wearing things out, why is there nothing I can do? It just shows how incapable I am in conquering it, no I am not going to let myself fall. I dont want those words once spoken to me unkept, I dont want to let myself wait for time to really pass and make things weary. I don't want to lose the trust i've really trusted towards the promise and now it seems like I'm really staking everything on it. Everything around can't stop making me dream but still purely wake up to the very fact, I dont know at all what's the situation now. I'm a sensitive shit person just like a human being. I've been making myself feel terrible all the time, but it seems that no matter how tired i am, I just want to keep myself wide awake but oblivious to any permanent fact that may happen. I really can't control my emotions now, for all the time I've never felt that I've got really much I can say for that it may affect anything. So I stick to my determination which will be keeping me strong and going.
You know why i'm not one who can give confidence? Cause I've kept all for myself for I'm a selfish freak who can't share my only strength to keep me going. Without it I know I will fall and just because I don't have the courage to be dependant on others. Confidence is telling me, I got to maintain the positive way. Who cares a shit like what fuck may happen, time may be the obstacle right? I don't care whether you this damn time will be making it fade, I'm winning you time, for you come here only for a second and you're gone. It may be bad time now for me now but your mates are the one who will be making things better for me soon someday. You may be playing a game with me, you may be existing right now, but NOW you're gone and just exist as memories. Goodbye time as I'm typing right now. You're going away, while I'm still here. I will make friends with those time who will make things better for me. They're coming I know. I trust my faith, I trust my determination. I need to learn how to give my confidence away. Whether others tell you its worth it or not Ly, you know the answer is in yourself. It's not for others to tell you. You know what you will always choose, the optimistic way. Whether what negative things in your mind that may be misleading you. But you got to know it's not all the time it's only you alone who choose the way you want, there's the other party. Yes he can't know what you're thinking, so it maybe wouldn't even bother the person. But there's still faith, there's still hope. Meanwhile, face it Ly.
thank you yet sorry to you who dont take sorries from me.
The top portion is a self muttering nonsensical post.