Saturday, January 20, 2007
{ 3:46 PM
What do you expect me to do?
Whatever you're unhappy with I bothered adjusting to your liking.
Or at least to a least dislike extent.
However I received no reaction from you. (weeks is long enough to tell me i shant bother doing things that you dont bother seeing)
When the next thing comes up you fuck me off again?
I've been told not to spite you on purpose, I dont.
You were the one who caused the most hurt from the start.
You were the one who told me to take the risk yet gave up.
So why say I hurt you when you are the one doing so to me?
I'm not the one who should be in the position trying and have you telling others fuck me.
I pity myself about this now. I think i'm feeling unwell since pringles with Graci then. I need more sleep and water than having others fucking me.
I'm sorry to those whom i gave the impression that you're weird or i dont feel like helping you out. Jon I think I was just upset these few days like you said. :(
After yesterday's match with Tampines I'm wondering what's wrong with me. I'm trying to deny the fact that I was affected just because I got so many good luck/ jia you wishes from people but you. You were too unwell that you forgot was my only reason. Cause the other reason will be you dont bother. Monday with Chung Cheng will be different i hope. Good luck and jia you prolly are just words with no effect right? Encouragment from the others are enough for probably this year aint really my year and i'm not up to it yet anyway.
I'm saying this out now so that it wont make a difference when you do it in future. There's no point already like what you always say. When actually theres nothing wrong admitting a problem when it'll still be the same solution. Our thinking is different.
i'm sorry for how upset i sounded yesterday ivan. i dont understand how girls and guys think now weirdly.