Everything on Earth goes down to dust, but what's imprinted on the heart remains alive
Thursday, March 15, 2007
{ 10:18 PM
I dont understand. It seems like everybody's got a problem. Now i'm not finding joy in something i like. Why did I even grow to like it? Same reason. Why do I get unhappy about it? Same reason.
Sometimes I feel empty because of the spots people left behind when they left me. However I'm always filling it up. Yes, I hope so. Sometimes I dont like it when people tries to get closer. One reason being sometimes im afraid they will just let go.
Otherwise it means I dont like you, we are two worlds apart and we got nothing to be in common.
There are only a few who matter to me, so I dont care if I matter to them as long as I care about them for as long as I know we exist. Most of them were mutual, but maybe only one or two cases were one-sided.
My team was love, but who treats it as love now?
I dont understand. So when people had let me go, they were telling me they are not going to exist right?
Is it because I was so serious in relationship with people, there are so many times I feel genuinely happy but there were still those I felt really hurt and upset.
I cant imagine my years to come.
I am really really really confused today.