Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Joy of the Lord, which is my strength. (: { 11:22 PM
Although i'm exhausted both physically and mentally after completing my SS, (and i just feel like inserting a ftw here!) but I wanna blog down today cause it is certainly a meaningful day after the weeks and months of 'monotonous lifestyle' i've been leading.
MORNING: AMANDA PE'S BIRTHDAY
Went earlier to cut the cake!!! But I think my mood this morning had been affected because old friend came to visit last night. Plus it was scorching hot/humid or whatever lah.
:D
Thanks Eileen for the donuts today!!
MinLe for the heat rub!!
Celeste, Eunice, etc regarding the kolam fair!
I'll skip the school details. Went for training right after school as Bio make-up lesson has been postponed to thursday as well, which means after Chem prac. we have to stay back for Bio. What is this, chiong science!?!?!?!?!??! :)
Training's been so much fun especially during the game. Plus it displayed Elize's true colours. So funny! Haha. And also, I learnt from CiHui that it's sure a useful tool to vent your frustrations if you do have any! Haha it is sureeeeeeeeee-ly interesting.
So after it came the part when I spoke with Graci. This was when I discovered how 'disappointing' I had been. It was when we 'clarified' certain matters, and yeah. Honestly it was only during December did I learn to be a better friend, and seriously come down to treasuring you all. Especially Wj, she's been really great to hang out with and I place my trust in her.
I wasnt too bothered at all, what I was feeling then was 'the sense of guilt'. And what I thought of was the sentimental feelings. I just didnt know how to reach into both your hearts right then, right at that very moment when those things happened. I guess I was still a fool during that time being overwhelmed by guilt. Forgive me, for then, please.
Now I understand Graci's point of view of a blessing in disguise. Seriously I dont know why i'm feeling much better now. I'm glad that we both sure know how to analyse our surroundings, and voice out thoughts and opinions. This is all for now, this time I know in my heart that there certainly isnt an end yet. Love you, Graci. :)
Next, went to have bubble tea with Alicia, Geraldine, Coach, Ci Hui, Xinling & Graci after training! This was how I felt that there was once this bond we had lost within us. Oh come on, what's wrong with making a lil bit of effort to get back together with all of us? All we not significant as of compared to some cd albums? Are we not comparable to goods, or are we equivalent to those which you even have to consider in advance before buying? We tried giving 3 weeks in advance. Shouldnt you be guilty that everyone but you is trying?
I'm sorry that even I am saying this, but this shows that you are of significance to our whole team.
Sigh, anyway all of my team mates have been real great. If I were to go into details of everyone of them, there's pretty much stuff I could give. ^^
There are always this certain 'season' of one's life when they start talking about some wisdom talks. I've been absorbing rather a few recently although I dont know if they'll be useful in crafting a better character for myself. By the way, Jon's blog happened to become a site which has the 'wisdom talk' once more.
I know I've got good friends. Just as I was thinking of one today, we actually chatted and could even just meet up tomorrow! Conversation gets going so easily with even just a book.
2 years and I call him a good friend, he is a good friend, I dont know whether to define it as long or short. But its certainly amazing, since we hardly have time to keep in touch now. But we are still able to catch up every now and then and surprisingly, sometimes its like a piece of cake!
Even my secondary school friends are going on fine. So i'm wondering, what about my childhood friend from kindergarten to primary school? When are we ever calling each other up and spends hours talking through the phone again? Or even babysitting together once more. Hahahahaha. Although it seems like fat chance but it was indeed a wonderful memory. (:
Just as I spent an hour playing the piano yesterday, I finished For One More Day. Somehow or another I prefer the first two books. Anw, does anyone has Cecilia Ahern's PS I Love you?
Btw, thanks Chim & Josh for last night. Once more, you both made me feel really much better. All the best for your matches!!!! =)
Especially my gf! I'm starting to believe your on-off form theory cause it has never occured to myself! I can never afford for any off-forms I realized. Nothing but improvement and effort! Is it that way? Lol.
NO Chiang Rai, team's more impt. Mt Kinnabalu sounds appealing though! :D
After certain matters I am convinced now that there are the ups and downs of life. Life's somewhat controlled like a wheel; last week the arrow pointed negative, this week's positive. I am sure, I tell you.
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But 1 hour later, all confidence got beaten down just because of one thing.
Alright, it probably just wavered. Till then.
